roseveare

I went to see Ghostbusters. Life goes on, I guess. The little girl enthusing as we came out how she "really liked how it was all girls!" says it all about this movie. These are the kind of women I want to see films about. I liked Erin, personally, but I can see why the Holtzman love too. And Patty.

I've written 2,000 words on House of Mara #3 in the last few days, almost edited part 3 of A Toy Story, typed half of what I'd written of my Rare Pair fic, and poked at the unedited supposed fic for WIPbigbang. Things are moving again. I plan to go back to work on Monday, although with the various other things going on I'd still only be working three mornings that week, and four days the week after.

I am looking for groups and courses to join IRL. I'm 38, but I still spent so much of my time with my parents. They were my best friends and I'd always rather hang out with them than anyone. Various members of the groups I'm already in are coming through, inviting me for a bit more social contact. I also spent two hours sat at my sister's house, occasionally talking, but mostly working separately in companionable silence, this afternoon. Mum would've been astonished.

There's a 10 week WEA acting course for £70 locally, which would be an interesting tie-in with the voice stuff for the podfics, and not repeat things I already know the way the bazillion arts, crafts and writing courses out there would most probably do.

Ironically, I need to learn to drive. I'm not being stuck without being able to get out to the moors and the places I love. I can't do that soon enough.

An improvement on yesterday, today I wrote 7,000+ of the fic exchange fic where I'd been thinking OH.FUCK about the assignment ever since I received it. I'm like, why did I offer this fandom? I've never even read any fic in this fandom... okay, so I've just watched every episode in this fandom, so I know it better than the things that are old fandom options that I haven't watched in forever that I subbed it in for on the signup, but.

And having written the fic, I checked out the other fic in the fandom and discovered that I seem to have written A Pairing That Does Not Exist. Or at least, the other single-digit number of fics out there are really short and really... predominantly non-con. Which, WTF, is not even remotely how I see the pairing -- I mean I like non-con and consent issues stuff but I don't see it as an intrinsic part of this pair -- what even is this, why?

I am staggered, staggered, because it's such a good pairing and such a strong/interesting/layered canon relationship, and okay, the show has a very strong canon het ship and the fandom seems het-based, but even so. I do not get it. Baffled.

I have one more other-fandom fic to write and then I'll be mainlining Haven again until Halloween, I think. I hope. Probably. I have a bunch of things I really want to write and just haven't had time to even approach, like the cap to the House of Mara series and post-finale fix-its. Agent Carter may get a look-in because Jack still has not suffered enough and I bought DVD documentaries on Iwo Jima to watch.

My aunt's funeral was on Thursday, after a long illness, and right now I am still waiting for any sense of purpose to kick back in. I just feel low-key grim, and my family are out of town, and various friends haven't been in touch in forever, so I end up being on my own for these three days Friday-Sunday, with this sense of having to pick things up somehow. Getting annoyed at people being wrong on the internet isn't going to help that, but a few things are simmering anyway.

There are a lot of things I don't write on here, because I can't get past the idea that if I write them up I'm making them a sort of rehearsed dialogue for blogging, because I don't feel like dramatising my life and feelings that way is a thing I want to do, and there's always going to be an element of that with the public diary format of livejournal and dreamwidth. But then there's also the matter of providing context, rather than disappearing without trace and going monosyllabic and blunt when I do communicate, so I guess: this is how I'm feeling at the moment, don't expect much.

There are all sorts of things I should be doing -- mostly editing -- if I could only concentrate on them. There's the sticky matter of that M/M Rares fic I should be writing, as well.

Been sitting on this one a while because I'm thinking of writing more, but I feel I need something fun and distracting to post today.

Havenverse Random Prompt Generator

William Cross / Duke Crocker / terror


( spoilers for the finale )

I now have four demijohns bubbling in the cupboard: Dandelion, Oak Leaf, Hawthorn Flower, and Elderflower. They have the most wonderful colours and smells, and I don't know what people complain about with elderflower, it smelt a bit funny the first few days in the bowl but it smells amazing now.

I have almost four Haven fics on the verge of edit-ready, tackling the last few thousand words of Sea Change IV at the moment, and around 15k of it is already typed, so there's not an excess of typing to do. The others are Nexus (Jess Minion/Nathan psychaedelic wilderness porn), A Toy Story (Duke/Nathan, sequel to Pinocchio is Bleeding), and the fic that will probably be used for WIP Big Bang (because WIP Big Bang involves illustrations and I don't want one SC story illustrated when I have no intention of illustrating the rest), Kill Count, which is a gen casefile about Jordan and Nathan trapped inside a computer game.

3 of these are old stories, Nexus being one of the first I wrote in the fandom, and A Toy Story has been sat still awaiting typing for 2 years, and SC IV has been a wip for at least a year, so this is very much clearing headspace so it'll be easier to work on new things. There'll be another round of these in a few months, because I have a lot of half-finished, untyped, or unposted stuff.

The Everywoman exchange went live overnight and I got a lovely Allison Blake and Zoe Carter story about life in charge of Global Dynamics: A Typical Day in Eureka.

I am still not reading my friends list. Apologies to everyone who isn't involved in this.

So here’s a thing. It’s been so long since I’ve done this I wasn’t sure I could draw portraits any more. Person of Interest’s John Reese because I was watching fanvids at the time, and just paused the vid and drew. Not perfect, but all things considered. Done with a too-hard pencil in the half dark because I couldn’t be bothered to get up and switch on the light or find proper materials. About an hour.

Well. May we live in interesting times, I guess.

Just to emphasize the point that despite the arguments given prominence in the media, many people have been quoting reasons to vote Brexit that were nothing to do with immigration, insularity and racism. I'm really not politically minded enough to get into arguments or specifics (in fact I'm going to remove commenting on this post) but I've been around a variety of opinions, including those of various more hippy and alternative groups and rural communities connected with farming, who all had their own reasons to want to break with Europe and its regulations. Please don't throw all Brexit opinions into one box just because the media tried to make it about immigration foremost. There's no purpose in assigning the slither-more-than-half of the population who voted as indiscriminately bigots or idiots, as I keep seeing.

While it's not the result I'd voted for, we need to deal with it now as best we can. Damage control and not recriminations.

TITLE: The Future Is What You Make It
AUTHOR: roseveare
RATING: PG13
PAIRING: ~Dayna/Soolin
LENGTH: ~2,500 words
SUMMARY: "...It also can't be long now before they count up the bodies and review their security footage and realise they're missing two important ones."
"Not as important as Blake," Dayna said bitterly.
NOTES: Written for Raspberryheaven in My Old Fandom exchange 2016.
The mention of post Gauda Prime in the request it made me realise it had never occured to me to think about these two post Gauda Prime; I'd always assumed that like most of the cast, they didn't make it, so it had never been a possibility. Hence this fic decided out of nowhere that it was going to be about Soolin and Dayna surviving and how they might begin anew.
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( The Future Is What You Make It )

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TITLE: The Witchfinder's Whore
AUTHOR: roseveare
RATING: R
LENGTH: ~18,800 words approx
SUMMARY: Nathan Wuornos hid his magic and took up bartering his flesh for coin after watching his father burned at the stake. But one day, an aggressive client cries "witch!" and Nathan finds himself in the citadel jails. An unexpected reprieve appears in the form of shady priest Duke Crocker, who offers to release Nathan in return for his services... both physical and magical... in bringing down his hated enemy, corrupt Crown Inquisitor Lady Mara and her consort William. Nathan has no intention of betraying another witch, but he'll take the chance for freedom... and to play with the delectable priest's guilty lusts while he's about it...
NOTES: Crack fantasy romance novel AU written for the Unconventional Courtship challenge.
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, no profit, yadda, yadda, yadda.
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"It is a Dark Era, one when a lusty lad will do what he must to survive. Even if it means bartering flesh for a palmful of coins. . . Forced to watch his father burn at the stake, Nathan Wuornos knows the danger of the gift he inherited - a powerful magic that must stay hidden. Until one night when he's accused of witchcraft and Nathan finds himself behind prison walls, awaiting certain death with a roguish priest unlike any man of the cloth he has known. In reality, Duke Crocker is as far from holy as the devil himself, but his promise of freedom in return for Nathan's services may be his salvation. Locked into a dubious agreement, Nathan resents his plan to have him seduce and ruin his lifelong enemy. But toying with Duke's own lust for him is enjoyable, and he agrees to be his pawn while secretly intending to use him just the same..."

--Based on 'The Harlot' by Saskia Walker.

The roles could've gone either way. But I've been joking about writing hooker!Nathan since the season 3-4 hiatus, so~



( The Witchfinder's Whore )

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TITLE: Conversations With Ghosts
AUTHOR: roseveare
RATING: PG13
LENGTH: ~12,000 words approx
SUMMARY: Nathan's Trouble came back gradually, a little each day ever since he walked alone down the armoury hill and left his heart behind. A few days after he finally awoke with no sensation left in his body, they found the first corpse with aether-smudged eyes.
Now he faces questions he never wanted to ask. Are the Troubles coming back? Is the apparition of Duke seen in Haven responsible for the killings? Can Croatoan's reach extend beyond the walls of the new Barn, and even death itself?
PAIRING: Duke/Nathan, Audrey/Duke/Nathan
NOTES: written for PhoenixDragon in the After Forever post-finale fic exchange: Duke isn't dead, but isn't technically alive, either. Nathan had to make a choice, Duke was not that choice. But he feels haunted and wonders if he made the right one - as attacks on Haven begin by a serial killer and Duke is the obvious suspect, even as he is not really there to defend himself.
This story is set as an alternative to the last ~2 minutes of screentime in the finale; Audrey is still in the armoury, and Nathan is still trying to live his life and rebuild Haven.
DISCLAIMER: Not mine, no profit, yadda, yadda, yadda.
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( Conversations With Ghosts )

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